Seriously, I don't think I ever got up from my "spiritual knees" last week. My prayers covered everything from asking God's comfort and peace if I should be disappointed, to begging him to please-please-please let me final, to just praying for the humility to accept whatever the results might be with grace and dignity.
So here's the scoop on Friday morning. I really, really tried to focus on my normal routines and not get too distracted by my anxiety. Fed the dogs, made the coffee, had breakfast. Turned on "Good Morning, America" and opened the newspaper. Jack got home from the health club, and after he had breakfast, we read our morning devotions and prayed together (yes, you know about what!).
Then at 8:20 the phone rang. I looked at the caller ID and didn't recognize the name or number. Peggy Emard introduced herself on behalf of RWA and told me that Autumn Rains was a finalist in the Inspirational Romance category. Jack was sitting right beside me, and my massive grin and victory fist told him all he needed to know. I tried to stay calm enough to listen to what else Peggy needed to tell me. Unlike many other finalists I've heard from, I didn't yell or scream or cry, but I must have thanked her about a million times. Only after I hung up did I jump up for my celebratory dance and shed some very, very happy tears.
Since Friday about a zillion emails have been flying through my inbox. With 76 other finalists in the various categories (there are 4 finalists in mine), a whole lot of celebrating has been going on--not to mention all the questions about what happens next. For one thing, I'm now thinking seriously about attending the national RWA conference in Reno this summer, where the winners in each category will be announced. It's supposed to be quite the affair!
But all the hype aside, what I desire most from this success is that a publisher will give me a chance. For one thing, it would make our CPA a whole lot happier if I could show a profit from my writing this year. But mainly I want to use this God-given gift in the Lord's service. It can't be for nothing that God instilled in me this lifelong love of writing. I know he has a purpose for it, and I pray for more and wider opportunities to use my writing to spread God's love and truth.
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